Death and regrets

I haven't really been writing much recently.

This is because I have not really been able to process some of the events of the last few weeks.

One of my patients died - very suddenly and very horribly. And I feel very responsible for her death. At some point, when I have stopped seeing her face in my dreams, I will write about it.

But for now, I have guilt. And it plagues me.

I could not face her family. I felt compelled to write them a letter expressing my sorrows and my regrets.

Now, I wait.